my glittery facade

I know I can act happy for all I want but I'm not.

I'm finding it hard to trust anyone anymore.
My third sleepless night.
I didn't know I could hold it out that long.
I just hope I'll be so tired tomorrow night.
so tired that I'll fall asleep the very instant I lie in my bed.
Only then, maybe I'll get to be in my dream land,
where "us' still exist...

where's my forever and ever?