anybody there?

Does anyone even read or understand what I say?
Does anyone even care why I am writing all this?
Shall I ask him? Shall I not? but I know he doesn't care.
They say one day I'll pass all this... ONE DAY -.-

I can control my sms, my action, my tears and emotion
I actually fear my bed because I can't fall asleep
but when I do, I can't help but dream of you...
and it's so sweet that I actually don't wanna wake up from you.

Somebody just kill me please.