good time, fun time takes a break till december.

I failed my mission to a certain extent.
I tried my best. I really did, but I just cannot watch him leave me.I just can't seem to get use to the departure part, separting me from my beloved. I guess that's just me. I walk out of the train, trying real hard to control my tears.Well, at least he could still say I love you one last time before I walked out, many thoughts ran through my mind, but I just can't seem to put them into words .Waited for the bus, board it, and watched the train leave through the windows of the bus. Well, at least he's still in Singapore while I'm writing this. As the time passes I feel the distance between us increase. I know it's the worst time for me, from the time we part till him reaching his destination. Trust me, it doesn't feel good, I can feel my heart burning from time to time, cause he's always on my mind.

If he'll see this which I doubt cause he doesn't know much of it.
This is what I want to say :
Darling, I hope to be stronger as time passes, so that you could be proud of me. Knowing that it isn't easy for you to be alone there, without your loved ones, makes me want to lighten your loads and make you worry less. I know it won't be easy but I'll try, for I know you've always wanted me to be strong, to be independent, and get used to days without you by my side. Afterall, we are unable to see each other as often as other couples do. I know you are a man of few words, many a times you choose to keep quiet even when you know something isn't right. I hope you knew I didn't mean to complain about you all the time, I just wanted a little more love and attention. If I've hurt you, trust that it isn't what I wanted and I'll learn hard to change, like how much you've tried to be a better boyfriend.
I'll see you when I see you, and I hope by then, it's the better you and me that we'll be seeing. I look forward to spending time with you again, especially christmas. :)

Since young, I was never once the strong girl. I've always tear and make a fuss out of the slightest things. From food to toys, from tv to going out, basically just anything that didn't seem to go my way. I know tears could get me nowhere, but it's still a way for me to relieve my stress and also a way to express myself. Since I'm old enough already, I shall start learning to be one. At least try not to tear in front of anyone else, I will and I shall.
I will learn to be stronger than each day that passes.

Had my DOE test this morning.. hopefully will pass. Skipped the rest of the lesson of the day after that class though, feel so guilty la.. lol.
Today's my last day to pei my darling, so sad la. I try not to think about it though. He won't want me to be sad either. =X erm, nvm.I'll just look forward to the next semester though, at least I won't feel so bad. hmmm, I hope I'll get use to it soon again.

Hai...I'll try to spent full use of the last few hours though. Mission of the Day : I SHALL NOT CRY. :)

I miss my darling.

I like haven't seen him since friday la.. Until tomorrow it'll be about 64 hours that I'm doing without him.
Come to think of it, I wish I could always say that. Like how every couple does when the complain, "I haven seen my darling for how many hours or how many days la." People, please be contented k? cause once my beloved leaves for australia, it'll be months till I see him again. Think people, its like how many days, hours and minutes man... Don't always complain about your the other half k? cause I'm sure you mean the world to them even if you all are not beside each other 24/7 k? Cherish what you have and learn to appreciate them.

Back to the old days..

The adventure of bell and yl. * From home *

Bell came over to my place for movies again... We watched down with love and All about love. We had pasta and soup for lunch. Left my place at like 4 plus and we took the train, where we took damn lotsa of pictures... I bet everybody had their attention drawn to us... ;)


* To train... *


We went to Macdonalds for sherrie's birthday party as planned. Yes people, you are so not seeing things... It's at macdonalds and we had happy meal and played childish games and all that... We had fun la, although we had a lot of complaints, we still enjoyed it. And all that " I don't friend you" thingy... it's like back to a little kid la.. seriously, I've never ever go for a party at mac before and this time was an unforgettable one, but of course a pleasant one too. In any case, anyone of you would like to follow trend, PLEASE... DON'T, okay?? Cause sher gets to be the first person and the last person that I'll ever attend such party for. Well, if you all really want to try it, I'll probably be "sick" or " lost my way" on the day =P

* To sher's party..*

Don't we just look like princesses... hahahahahah.. just dreaming to be one.

And ya once again, Happy 18th Birthday sherrie!! We love sherrie.Lots. hugs-

Next week this time, I'll be missing you... And to my beloveds, you all can meet me la, like finally, I apologise for the interuption and inconvience caused. You know I'll always love you all.. haha.. going mango for a finally lap later with my mum, hope will get alot alot of clothes... hahahahha... now back to my project..

The nearer the time, the worst my frown.-

yes! and no...

Yes! my darling pass all his papers, I am really happy for him. We'll go out to celebrate tommorow, I think.
No... More work for me to do cause I haven been turning up for classess and I need to do alota tutorial, so bored. Back to my piles and tons of greeks that's called " tutorial and proposal" -_-"

I'm bored

hmmm... let me see, it's like 40 days to my birthday... I should be happy right??
It seems like my happiness is being overtaken by the sadness. He's leaving for melbourne in another 14 days, and I know I really don't want him to go. Everyone says he will be back, but that doesn't mean he's never gone... I'm not ready to go back to my solitude, at least not now. All this while, I've enjoyed his company, and I bet I laugh more whole-heartedly than ever, whenever he's by my side. It's not where we go, or what we do, its because it's him. Like how people always say letting time come to a standstill, I wish for that whenever he's by my side. I admit at times I feel lost in the relationship and have doubts about it. It is also because of all the bad times we've been through that makes me more certain about my feelings towards him.

Promise me you won't be gone for long.-

movie

yesterday watch movie with my darling and his brother, we watched superman return. The show was about two and a half hours. I was damn hungry throughout the show la, but when we finally got to have dinner at the food court, I order and ate like a quarter of my food. okay, that's about it. I want go home from my darling's place le. 18 more days to pei him... I feel sad, I already miss him even before we leave for home each night... ;'(

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After all these, maybe I'm just gonna set up a new blog again ='(
seriously, I'm getting tired.
Some say holding on is a kind of courage, But sometimes...
it's letting go.-
For now, I shall stare at my ceiling and hope for a better day.